Bangin

Oh my gosh I just made this and am literally rolling on the floor because it was seriously the best thing I have ever tasted. The mashed potatoes rocked my world. The homemade gravy was just insane. AND THE FREAKING MEAT. HOLY MOTHER ALMIGHTY. Sam even said it was really good. That’s saying something. Do yourself a favor and make this ASAP. You will be so thrilled.

I can’t believe Sunday night is already upon us. I just put Harry to bed after we read 2 books and am now sitting on the couch eating chocolate chip muffins. I get so sad on Sunday’s because it means the weekend and family time is over.

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I wish I had his lashes

This weekend my mom and I drove to my sister’s in Duluth to wedding plan/dress shop as she is newly engaged (YAY!!!!!). I love going to Duluth-it’s such a fun place to visit and I love spending time with my mom and sister.

One of my obsessions is the Lake Superior Bakehouse. I make a point to stop there every time I’m in Duluth now because they have the most INSANE pastries and lattes. They open at 8 AM on Saturdays and I make sure I get there right at 8 so I have the first pick of all the treats. This time, after staring at the case of sugary snacks I selected a white chocolate raspberry scone, a caramel pecan roll, and my fave of the bunch, the blueberry cream cheese roll. UGH. I would love to eat these every day. They also satisfied my sweet tooth for the day. For my beverage I chose the smore’s mocha as it was the seasonal special. LOVE.

Seeing these pictures seriously makes my mouth water. I mean look at the frosting on that roll. GOOD lord. Help me.

Our weekend was spent at the wedding show, dress shopping (She said YES!), and playing games. Oh, we also watched the Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and I’m obsessed. Oh and Pillow Talk. So good.  My mom and I left this morning after breakfast so I could get home to the fam bam jam. Also, traveling always throws off my bowel movements so I can’t wait to wake up, drink coffee, and poo.

I also got in a nice workout this afternoon. I finally got my push jerk in the 100’s and almost pee’d myself from excitement. I got 3 sets of 3 at 105 and couldn’t have been more joyous. Hard work pays off peeps. My workout was fast but fun. Here ya go:

For time:

27-21-15 reps of:

Burpees, Swings, Snatches (alternating arms), and Air Squats

Then…5-5-5-3-3-3 Push Jerk

5×12 lunges with barbell on back.

OOFDAH.

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Hey.

PS I got bangs. Yeah. Now I really feel like a mom 🙂

That is all for now as I have to get my shit ready for tomorrow. Fresh week. Big stuff ahead. Get focused, carry on.

Have a sweet Sunday night and eat dessert (get it?).

XO

-Haley

 

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Give Yourself Credit

Hello. Here we are again, Friday. Sweet because then Sam gets to be home all weekend but also not sweet because time is going way too fast and I’m already getting anxious about going back to work. Just live in the moment right? But that’s freaking hard. Since Harry came a week early, I get to go back to work on Christmas Eve day (I should be thrilled to have a job to go back to) and I’m already crying thinking about leaving my son the day before Christmas. Any helpful tips on how to transition would be greatly appreciated 🙂

So, yesterday Harry and I went to Gramma Dee and Grandpa Fletch’s house for a little visit. Since we still don’t have laundry, I brought along a couple loads and my mom (she’s a literal angel) prepped us a couple meals. Hello instant pot pot roast, chicken pot pie, and these bars!. Our little fam is so lucky to have you mom!

Anyway, while at their house, I got super anxious about little Harry not eating enough. He has some super great feedings where I’m like, “man, we got this down.” And then he has a bunch of shitty feedings where I’m like “I suck, he’s going to lose weight and have to go to the hospital. I’m going to just start feeding him formula.” It seriously stresses me out every single day. I try to remain calm and tell myself he is eating enough since he’s pooping and peeing and he’s not asking for more. But how can I be sure? I just want to weigh him every day to make sure he’s going in the right direction.

To try to relieve some stress, I took myself to the State Park for a nice run/walk (FYI I am incredibly sore today…the hills really got me). The Park is my favorite place to go when I need to chill the eff out because it is beautiful there and during the week it’s pretty much empty. Just me and nature. Let me tell you, for the first half of my run-hike, I could not relax. I kept thinking…what if Harry is hungry (Haley, you left a bottle), what if Harry is crying (Haley, he’s a baby, he’ll probably cry)…Haley, you left your 1 month son, you are a crappy mom (Haley, you are not a crappy mom, you can take an hour for yourself…Haley no you can’t). Yes, these are the exact thoughts that consumed my mind for the first 4 miles.

I even worked myself into a nice headache due to this stress. Then with about 2 miles left, I finally chilled the eff out. IDK what it was but something just changed and I felt calm. I knew Harry was in good hands. He had everything he needed and he’d be alright for an hour.

I just don’t know why I let myself get so stressed. It doesn’t make anything better at all. I feel like one minute I’m so confident in everything, and the next minute I’m in a panic, questioning everything. Ask Sam, he’ll tell you. One day I’m like “OMG Harry slept all day, he is growing!” The next day I’m like “OMG why is Harry sleeping all day? He must be ill?” Or “Harry’s belly is growing, yay!” “Harry’s belly is full of gas, get it out!”

However, I feel like Harry can sense my stress and that stresses him out (I know Ruthie can sure sense my stress) so I need to keep reminding myself to settle down. Plus, I hate being stressed…I’m mean, I stinky sweat, I get headaches. STOP BEING A STRESSED LADY, LADY.

So, how does one not stress with a baby? Take a stress relief bath? Drink a glass of wine? Talk to my support system? Go for a walk (LOL see above)?  Sure, these things might help temporarily but I don’t think it’s possible to not be stressed. But I’m going to try my best to remind myself that we’re doing the best we can.

This is all new territory and we will figure it out one hour, one day at a time. As long as Harry is fed, changed, warm, and snuggled, he is OK. Being a mom is the most rewarding yet hardest thing I’ve ever experienced but us moms need to give ourselves some credit. Bringing a human into this world is INSANE. This little being that was growing inside is now on the outside and we have so much to figure out together.

Here’s to all the mom’s out there. You are amazing. You’re doing the best job. Keep your head up because it’s not easy but it’s def worth it.

XO

-Mama Hales

The 36th Week

Hello!

I just had my 36 week Dr. Appointment and it went well…except for the part where I got tested for some bacteria thing and they shoved a stick in my bumhole. Yeah. I wouldn’t recommend that.

The baby is measuring the right size, heart beat is good, and things seem to be right on track. I weighed in around 153 which means I’ve gained about 23 pounds in the past 9 months. I’m 100% OK with that. After today I have Dr. Appointments every Friday until the due date so can’t wait to see what happens next week.

Now, lets back up to last weekend real fast. Sam and I went to the MN State Fair with his fam and it was a blast! It didn’t even feel that crowded to me. And I survived 5 whole hours there without having a breakdown. So cool.

I drank many waters, got the best chocolate malt from the dairy barn, ate some french fries, walleye fingers, fried pickles, and had a bite of Sam’s pronto pup. All the things were extraordinary. Other things we saw at the fair…goats, cows, and people dodging horse shit. Can’t wait for next year.

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Dairy Queen 

Alright, now back to this week. Things still seem pretty good as far as my feelings go. I haven’t had any crazy dreams, I haven’t spazzed at Sam once, I’m still pooping, no hems, and I can sleep through most of the night. Things that aren’t so great…this baby is pushing on my pelvis and it feels like it’s about to split in 2, my feet are getting a little swollen, and I have zero appetite in the morning (I asked the doc and she said that’s normal since my stomach is basically smooshed into my chest). I JUST want to be hungry!

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I’m carrying a puppy!

Cravings have been zero this week. Nothing really sounds good except maybe a donut? I can’t tell. Oh, and chocolate milk and root beer. Other than that…food is just meh.

I’m still managing to get a few good workouts in here and there although I’m thinking I’m going to be doing all at home workouts pretty soon because waking up at 4:30 am is really no fun anymore. I have been trying to take Ruthie for a walk before work now that I don’t start until 7:30 so that’s been a treat. I’ve also been doing a few treadmill “sprint” workouts and did a 2ish mile run on Tuesday. I don’t even care that I’m not running like I used to right now. There will be plenty of time to get back into it.

This week I had my second baby shower with my mom’s side of the family and it was an absolute blast. My mom and I drove over to my Grandma’s house on wednesday and met my 3 aunts for lunch. The food was delicious and I had a really tasty Root Beer. Then we headed back to Grandma’s house for the most delicious cheesecake from a European Bakery my Aunt Linda brought. SO good. There was a chocolate and a cherry and they were equally amazing.

After the cakes were eaten, we played some super fun games thanks to Aunt Polly. There was the frozen babies in ice cubes game and whoever’s melted first was supposed to shout “my water broke!” Grandma Lois won that one 🙂

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Baby Boy!

There was also the Nursery Rhyme game where you had to fill in the blank about nursery rhymes. I def need to brush up on my rhymes. We also played the candy bar game where you have to match the type of candy to the phrase….like Postpartum tummy=jelly belly. I loved this game because I love candy. The final game was pin the sperm on the egg (we’re all adults here, we can handle it). So creative, so fun.

After the games, it was time to head back home. Man, I have the greatest family and Baby wakey is so lucky.

This week I also got to have dinner with my 3 best gal pals and it was just the best. We met a place called The Sonder Shaker in Minneapolis and it was fantastic. The waitress gave some good recommendations and they even made a mock-garita. YUM. I sure miss margs.

All 4 of us split the deconstructed elotes and chips and guac and there was not a crumb left. Baby wakey gets hungry around 6 PM it seems. For the main course I went with the burger because it’s been a while and this burg did NOT disappoint. It had enough cheese, tasty pickles, and the best sweet potato fries. I’d eat that again.

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Burg and Fried

The gals gave me a prenatal massage giftcard (which was the most thoughtful gift ever!) and I cannot wait to use it next week. THANK YOU!!!

Now tonight, I am going to check out this thing called the Munchkin Market. It takes place at the fair grounds in Stillwater, MN and I hear it’s insane. If you’re a new or expecting mom you get in early on Friday so I’m really hoping to find some sweet stuff. Sam and I are also going to buy our travel system this weekend. I’ll update you on that next week.

For now, have a great Friday and PLZ DRINK SOME wine or a margarita for me.

XO

-Hales