Give Yourself Credit

Hello. Here we are again, Friday. Sweet because then Sam gets to be home all weekend but also not sweet because time is going way too fast and I’m already getting anxious about going back to work. Just live in the moment right? But that’s freaking hard. Since Harry came a week early, I get to go back to work on Christmas Eve day (I should be thrilled to have a job to go back to) and I’m already crying thinking about leaving my son the day before Christmas. Any helpful tips on how to transition would be greatly appreciated 🙂

So, yesterday Harry and I went to Gramma Dee and Grandpa Fletch’s house for a little visit. Since we still don’t have laundry, I brought along a couple loads and my mom (she’s a literal angel) prepped us a couple meals. Hello instant pot pot roast, chicken pot pie, and these bars!. Our little fam is so lucky to have you mom!

Anyway, while at their house, I got super anxious about little Harry not eating enough. He has some super great feedings where I’m like, “man, we got this down.” And then he has a bunch of shitty feedings where I’m like “I suck, he’s going to lose weight and have to go to the hospital. I’m going to just start feeding him formula.” It seriously stresses me out every single day. I try to remain calm and tell myself he is eating enough since he’s pooping and peeing and he’s not asking for more. But how can I be sure? I just want to weigh him every day to make sure he’s going in the right direction.

To try to relieve some stress, I took myself to the State Park for a nice run/walk (FYI I am incredibly sore today…the hills really got me). The Park is my favorite place to go when I need to chill the eff out because it is beautiful there and during the week it’s pretty much empty. Just me and nature. Let me tell you, for the first half of my run-hike, I could not relax. I kept thinking…what if Harry is hungry (Haley, you left a bottle), what if Harry is crying (Haley, he’s a baby, he’ll probably cry)…Haley, you left your 1 month son, you are a crappy mom (Haley, you are not a crappy mom, you can take an hour for yourself…Haley no you can’t). Yes, these are the exact thoughts that consumed my mind for the first 4 miles.

I even worked myself into a nice headache due to this stress. Then with about 2 miles left, I finally chilled the eff out. IDK what it was but something just changed and I felt calm. I knew Harry was in good hands. He had everything he needed and he’d be alright for an hour.

I just don’t know why I let myself get so stressed. It doesn’t make anything better at all. I feel like one minute I’m so confident in everything, and the next minute I’m in a panic, questioning everything. Ask Sam, he’ll tell you. One day I’m like “OMG Harry slept all day, he is growing!” The next day I’m like “OMG why is Harry sleeping all day? He must be ill?” Or “Harry’s belly is growing, yay!” “Harry’s belly is full of gas, get it out!”

However, I feel like Harry can sense my stress and that stresses him out (I know Ruthie can sure sense my stress) so I need to keep reminding myself to settle down. Plus, I hate being stressed…I’m mean, I stinky sweat, I get headaches. STOP BEING A STRESSED LADY, LADY.

So, how does one not stress with a baby? Take a stress relief bath? Drink a glass of wine? Talk to my support system? Go for a walk (LOL see above)?  Sure, these things might help temporarily but I don’t think it’s possible to not be stressed. But I’m going to try my best to remind myself that we’re doing the best we can.

This is all new territory and we will figure it out one hour, one day at a time. As long as Harry is fed, changed, warm, and snuggled, he is OK. Being a mom is the most rewarding yet hardest thing I’ve ever experienced but us moms need to give ourselves some credit. Bringing a human into this world is INSANE. This little being that was growing inside is now on the outside and we have so much to figure out together.

Here’s to all the mom’s out there. You are amazing. You’re doing the best job. Keep your head up because it’s not easy but it’s def worth it.

XO

-Mama Hales

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Holy Buckets Harry’s 1 Month!

I know people say time flies when you have a kid but shoot, time REALLY flies when you have a kid. Hare Bear turns 1 month in 58 minutes and I’m crying inside. I can’t believe you’ve already been here for an entire month…what was life like without you little guy?

To celebrate, we went to Harry’s weight check this morning. I was hoping he’d be at least 8 pounds 6 ounces…he shocked me and was a whopping 8 pounds 10 ounces! He’s gaining weight finally and I couldn’t be happier. He’s also about 23 inches long and has a good sized head but even better sized appetite (just like his dad).

I am still feeding him about every 2-3 hours except now he’s started to give me noticeable cues for when he’s hungry instead of me choosing when to feed…much easier that way. I still am supplementing with a bottle after every feeding but he hasn’t been taking much from that. I only pump when my boobs feel enormous (ever other feed) or he drinks a ton from the bottle. So, feedings have basically gone from an hour to 25 minutes. Swell.

I did take a few pics of Harry today because, well, duh. He’s a month old and kind of a cutie.

I don’t really know exactly what Harry likes/dislikes because he doesn’t speak yet but here’s my guesses:

Likes: Milk (duh), car rides, walks in nature, his sister Ruthie, snuggling, his dad, pulling hair, being fed, reading stories, being held, and watching sports.

Dislikes: Being changed, hiccups/burping, beans, cold hands and feet, and the Vikings.

Now to celebrate everyone surviving having a baby for a month, I’m off to bake some Chocolate Chip cookies and spaghetti. Have a magnificent Monday night!

Toodles!

-Hales

Sunday’s are for Chores and Shopping

Good morning! I’ve been up since 5:30 am feeding a hungry baby and now I’m wide awake and ready for a Sunday funday!

I’m also very excited because I just ordered these shoes and can’t wait to try them on. I don’t know about you but I’m very into online shopping…except when you have to make returns. I hate that.

Yesterday was a busy day in the wakefield household. You see, having a new baby means lots of laundry because lots of poop and pee and spit up. So, it was a very convenient time for our washer to break…NOT. Sam thinks it’s my fault because I shoved a huge comforter and pillow in there but I think it’s time was just up. So we took Harry to Home Depot yesterday and let him pick out the new washer. He did a good job and didn’t even pick the most expensive one…win! He also picked a dryer so we got that too…you know you’re grown up when you get excited about a new appliance.

Yesterday morning I also attended my first Alchemy class in what feels like a year (I think it’s been like 3 months?). It was hard and I realized my core is SO weak after having Harry (Had to do planks from my knees!). I took it easy, used lighter weights, and modified movements I wasn’t comfortable with. It was really nice to get in a group setting and get in a good sweat. But holy cow am I sore today…a good sore though.

This morning it is freaking freezing out so I decided to skip my Costco Pumpkin muffin and make a large bowl of oatmeal instead. I was feeling nice and spicy so I zipped that bowl up with some lovely flavors. It looked a little something like this:

1/2 cup of oats

Large sprinkle of tumeric

Large sprinkle of cinnamon (Vietnamese from Penzy’s…only cinnamon you should ever buy)

*I never measure my spices, I just dump them in*

Handful of crasins

I topped this with some homemade pumpkin butter and local real honey. YUM. I always forget how much I love oats until I eat them. Nice and warm, perfect for a chilly fall day.

Speaking of chili, I love chili so much but am trying not to eat it on account of beans and breastfeeding. So today I’m hoping to prep my other fave fall soup from PaleOMG. This soup is so easy to make and I buy the already chopped butternut squash. HIGHLY recommend. I’m also planning on making something in the slow cooker because I haven’t used that once this fall, some chocolate chip cookies, and overnight golden milk oats because now I’m on the oat train. Oh, and maybe some fun fetti donuts!

Sunday’s are normally for Football but not today. Since our washer isn’t going to arrive until Nov 6th, I’m using my parents washer to do laundry a couple times a week (I feel like a college student). So today we will be making the trek to Hudson for laundry, some Harry introductions to friends, and *hopefully* a nice walk at the State Park. Yahoo! Sounds like a fun filled Sunday if you ask me!

Now I gotta go #2 because I had coffee and oats and that’s a deadly combo…TMI but who cares I’m sure you’re about to poo too (pretty sure Harry’s pooping right now too).

Have a lovely Sunday my friends. Thanks for reading, I appreciate you all.

XO

-Hales (and a big #2)

Friday Fun

Goooooood Morning. I’ve been up since 5 AM due to a hangry baby but that’s OK because I had a free drink from Caribou for my birthday and am feeling pumped for the day. Sam also let me go to the gym this morning and it felt so good…even if it wasn’t the most intense workout ever, it felt SO good to get out and move. I’m easing back into it and have done a few 10 minute workouts at home while the monkeys (Ruthie and Harry) sleep. Here’s a snapshot of what I did (used very light weight, don’t worry):

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I can’t believe it’s already Friday. Harry and I have our follow-up appointment with the lactation specialist this morning and I’m feeling very optimistic. His cheeks look chubbier to me and he’s been waking himself up to feed instead of me waking him up. After our visit Monday, he was up to a whopping 8 lbs 4 oz and they said they wanted him to gain an ounce a day so I’m really hoping he has. I feel like all I’ve been doing is feeding the little piranha so I’m hoping for good news on his weight.

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Ruthie always needs to be touching 

Sam is on MEA break from school right now and it’s so fun to watch him with Harry. He even taught me the proper way to swaddle him after watching a video on it. He’s such a good dad and it makes my heart hurt to see them together. He’s the goofiest dad and makes me laugh (harry too except he doesn’t show that yet).

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Just over here wearing the feeding pillow as a hat…

Other things keeping me sane this week:

A hike with Ruthie at the State Park (Thanks Grandma Lynn for watching Harry!)

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It’s been a while

Costco jumbo muffins (the pumpkin ones…2 packs for $7.99)

Sunshine

Ruthie Snuggles

Fall scented candles

Stress relief lotion from Bath & Body

Alright, off to the doc! Toodles!

-Hales

 

Harry is 3 weeks!

HAHA funny thing…when I typed that title I accidentally typed months instead of weeks. No, Harry is not 3 months yet…thank goodness.

We had a busy but lovely weekend with family and friends. Friday started with a coffee date with some girlfriends at Fairgrounds. Such a cute place, Harry wants to go back weekly (even though he didn’t see the place due to his eyes being closed the whole time). I got the best mocha complete with a large chunk of chocolate. Highly recommend.

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Sleepy Harry

This was the first weekend Sam was able to be home the whole weekend so it was very relaxing (he normally has to do some window washing on the weekends for his business) and we had lots of snuggle time with Ruth and Harry on the couch due to the freezing cold and snow…yes, snow.

Aunt Molly came to town Friday for some full blown Harry snuggles and it was great to have her. I wish she could live in my basement and be my full time nanny but lets be real, that isn’t gonna happen.

The whole crew went to our fave local restaurant Moe’s on Friday for dinner. It just happened to be Oktoberfest there so that was a fun time…we did leave before the Polka band started because Harry did not have proper ear attire. But, we did get in on the Oktoberfest specials…hello pretzel with mustard and beer cheese. One of my faves.

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First beer cheese dip in MONTHS…holla.

One thing about having a baby and having to feed him every couple hours is that by the time 8pm rolls around and baby gets his milk, mama is so tired. So I did not make it very long Friday night 😦

Saturday morning we woke up and made a snazzy breakfast of pumpkin blueberry pancakes (my fave recipe from my mom), eggs and veggies, maple sausages, and coffee. The pancakes turned out so good and I am still eating them today.

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Punkin Pancakes

Molly and I took Harry and Ruth to the park for a nice walk after breakfast but Harry was a little crabby so we didn’t make it very far before turning around…of course right when we got back to the car he fell asleep. Convenient.

The rest of Saturday was spent at my parents house watching the Brewers and eating the best hamburgers my dad cooked on the grill. Dinner was followed by the best desserts every from San Pedro Cafe in Hudson. If you’re in the area, stop in for the Habenero Chocolate cake and Key Lime Pie. They are my fave but I only get them on my Birthday. YUM.

Aunt Molly also did a nice little newborn photo shoot of Harry this weekend and I am so in love with the photos. Of course he slept through most of the pictures but managed to open those dark eyes up for about 5 pictures. Little buddy.

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Little Lamb

My mom got us this cool first year picture frame and I can’t wait to start filling it up.

So today, I have an appointment with a lactation specialist because our Pediatrician was a little concerned about Harry not being back at his birth weight at our 2 week check up on Friday. She also didn’t like that he wasn’t waking himself up to feed every couple hours (I was having to wake him). I have been breastfeeding him for 10 minutes on each side every 2.5-3 hours and then pumping and feeding him whatever I pump (about 2 oz). Let me tell you, it’s exhausting, my nips are sore, and it feels like all I do is feed this child but I will do whatever it takes to make this work.

I’m really hoping things are going in the right direction because last night he woke himself up 3 times to eat. That’s gotta be a good sign. Hoping he’s at least 8 lbs 1 oz today at his weigh in and we can figure out what’s going on with our feeding sitch. Hoping for the best! He also shits and pees a lot so he’s gotta be getting nourishment. Cmon little buddy, grow!

He has grown an inch already and is in the 94th percentile for his height but his weight is in the 20th percentile.

The rest of today will be filled with a little cleaning, some organizing, a special visit from cousin Amber and little William, and a possible trip to Costco…although I’m really not sure how to bring Harry into Costco. Usually I use the stroller in stores because I’m not confident in putting him in a shopping cart (in his car seat) but I need a 40 lb bag of dog food and that def won’t fit in the stroller….hmm. Any thoughts?

I’m also going to admit I was getting restless and did a tiny 10 minute workout today. It felt so good to move around. I took it easy, drank lots of water and took breaks when needed. It looked a little something like this:

10 min AMRAP

30-20-10 reps

Air Squats

Snatches

Straight Leg Deadlifts

Bent Over Row

*Used 25 pound weight*

Ended with 3 10 second intervals of plank holds (slow and steady wins the race).

I wish you a productive week full of all things you love. Happy half way through October (SLOW down time!).

Toodles!

-The Crew

Thursday Things

Man, it’s been a busy week. I thought time would slow down being on maternity leave but nope! It just seems to go faster!

Harry turned 2 weeks old on Monday and I feel like he’s letting me get a little more sleep each night. Thank you buddy, I appreciate that. I still am feeling a little stressed about the whole breastfeeding thing and might visit the baby cafe either this afternoon or next week. I just want to make sure he’s getting enough nourishment! He has his 2 week check up tomorrow so I’m excited to see if he’s growing/where his weight is.

So, lets chat fun things. The weather here is shit. It’s been raining for the past 5 days and now today the high is a measly 39 degrees. I NEED SOME SUN. So, to battle the gloomy blues, I’ve been super into baking. Last week I made pumpkin donuts, this week it was apple donuts. I just searched online for a recipe but I want to start experimenting and making my own recipes!

The apple donuts were baked and then dusted with cinnamon and sugar and seemed a little dense but I still think they tasted amazing. Served with a side of scramble eggs and avocado…yum! I ate 10 of them in 3 days…LOL. Oops.

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Crooked Smiley

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Apple do-nuts or don’t-nuts

I also tried my hand at a pumpkin spice latte because we all know the ones from Starbucks and Caribou have like a million grams of sugar. If I’m gonna eat a million grams of sugar I’d rather have a couple donuts (or 10) ya know. So I took some milk and pumpkin and cooked that in a pan for about 5 minutes. Then I removed that from the heat and added a little maple syrup (thanks Uncle Danny), vanilla, pumpkin pie spice, and brewed coffee. I’d say it’s pretty fantastic. And I feel a lot better drinking this knowing there’s not a ton of unnatural crap in it.

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Baby Spice? Nah, Pumpkin Spice

Now, today is my 29th Birthday. It’s crazy how as you get older (and have kids and dogs) birthday’s get a tiny bit less exciting. I mean obviously it’s fun to know 29 years ago my mom was going through what I went through 2 weeks ago (sorry mom-I now know the pain you went through!). But as I age, I just care less about getting presents and more about spending quality time with the people that mean the most in my life. I’d much rather get coffee and chat than anything in the world. I’d much rather take my dog to the state park for a hike on a fall day. I’d rather receive a hug from my mom and dad than a cake. You get it.

Of course a Birthday brings about a whole new year. 365 days to grow, change, adventure, set goals, accomplish goals. If you think about it, 365 days seems like a long time but it’s really not. It sure flies by. So here’s a list of things I’m hoping to see/do in my 29th year.

-Teach my son to be a caring, loving human

– Travel to Banff/Lake Louise

-Try one new thing each month (new recipe, workout class, book)

-Sign up for a new race (hello Lutsen 50K??)

-Donate to puppy shelter

-Send more cards

-Adventure with Sam

-Make wine! Go on a wine tour

-Re-decorate/paint my house/fix it up/plan and save for new house (more like 5 year plan hehe)

-Blog consistently because writing is my true passion

-Relax. Stop being so hard on self.

-More homemade recipes…stop spending $5 on coffee!!!!! SAVE $$$

-Clean out closet-get rid of anything haven’t worn in past year

-Learn to live in the moment and stop wishing for next week/month/year

It’s just a start but having these things written down helps me see what I hope to accomplish and stay on track.

Do you have any goals you want to accomplish in the next year? How do you stay on track? I would love to hear your tips/tricks!

Now it’s time to catch up on laundry, dishes, and This Is Us (I’m only on season 2!).

Have a fabulous fall day.

XO

-Hales

Recovery

Good morning. I sit here sipping a tumeric mocha hot chocolate (leftover from yesterday morning…so freaking good), thinking about all sorts of things. I’m a big list maker and every day I write down a list of things I want to accomplish in my planner. Most days the items are things like meal prep, workout, laundry, run, and so on. Lately, my lists have consisted of baths, baby feedings, cleaning, laundry, walks, and naps. My how things have changed.

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Christmas Mug! 

As soon as you bring a child into the world, everything changes (for the best). Yes, I still do things for myself but now my baby comes first. Yesterday, Harry had a day. He was gassy, fussy, and nothing seemed to calm him except a ride to grandma and grandpas house. I tried singing to him, snuggling him, feeding him, changing him…he just couldn’t get happy. Normally I’d be a mess. I’d cry, freak out, become extremely stressed….but I’m learning I need to remain calm. Everything will work itself out. He’s a baby and he’s going to have good days and bad and I will take each day as it comes 🙂 He’s just so cute I don’t like seeing him with a sad face.

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Tummy time! He’s already starting to hold his head up for a couple seconds! 

So, now that the baby’s here, I’ve been thinking about my recovery plan. How soon can I get back into working out, eating protein shakes, running…all the things I love to do. I’ve been reading and most things say wait 6 weeks. At first my thoughts were…”6 weeks!? I can’t wait 6 weeks! I will lose all my endurance and muscles and never be able to pick up a weight again.” HAHA Haley, stop. You just pushed a baby out of yourself. Give yourself a break (a constant daily reminder).

You see, I thought I’d have the baby and be back to working out like normal in a week or two. LOL. Little did I know my body would need time to recover and rest. I tried doing pushups and could hardly eek out 2 from my knees. It also didn’t feel extremely great on my stomach/uterus. So I stopped. At that moment, I vowed to give myself the full 6 weeks to let my body heal. Yes, it’s freaking hard especially because I’m used to going going going all day. It’s hard for me to sit still. But I’m trying. Family walks have been a lifesaver. Lifting the baby has been a good arm workout. I will be alright, I just need to keep telling myself to take it easy and enjoy this time right now.

Like I said above, I’m a big list maker. So I already started making lists of things I do want to do once I’m back on the physical fitness train…it looks a little something like this:

  1. EASE back into it. Start with 10 minute workouts and work up to 20 minutes.
  2. Start with 2-3 days of working out and work up to 5 days.
  3. 2 full rest days a week (soak in the tub, take a walk).
  4. Start with all body weight and slowly add weight when ready.
  5. Focus on strengthening the core muscles.
  6. Running-start with 1 min of running, 1 min of walking and work up to 5 min running (get some solid new kicks for motivation).
  7. Sign up for a spring trail run for motivation (Hello willow river trail run!).
  8. Try a new class (Barre, yoga, flyfeet, orange theory…)
  9. EAT more veggies 🙂
  10. Give myself a break. No negative thoughts.

I’m hoping to get a weight bench at home so I can do this stuff while Harry snoozes but every one I’ve looked at is SO expensive and I’m trying to save money for Harry’s college fund so any recommendations on gym equipment would be gladly accepted.

Now for nutrition, I’m really trying my best to eat nutritious foods that will make Harry nice and strong. Although my sweet tooth has def showed back up since giving birth. AND all I want is milk…chocolate milk, white milk…all milk! So weird because I wasn’t a huge milk drinker before. Maybe it’s because I’m expressing so much milk to my son that my supply is depleted? LOL.

So meals have looked like this:

Breakfast: 2 eggs with spinach and tumeric + 2 homemade pumpkin donuts + a small coffee or tumeric mocha

Snack: Fruit (apple or banana)

Lunch: Salad or soup (thanks to everyone who has brought us meals!)+ roll or bread + handfull of M&M’s-I haven’t had plain M&M’s for ages and they are seriously the best thing right now.

Snack: Handful of potato chips or bowl of cereal

Dinner: Apple Beef meatballs with gravy, butternut squash, apple crisp, MILK.

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Thanks mom!

As my 29th Birthday is less than a week away, I’m trying to reflect on how I can live my best life for me and those around me. Here’s to making goals/lists, being challenged, exciting adventures, new experiences, and YOLO-ing.

Have a fantastic football Sunday. Go Pack! Go Brew Crew.

XO

-Hales, Ruth (snoring), and Harry (stretching).