Hello Fall

I was doing SO good with my posts… then life got cuckoo busy and I had to shove my passion aside for a moment. But I’m back and ready to roll.

Life has been a blur the past month. I went back to work. Harry turned 2. We moved. My mind has literally felt like a hamster spinning in its wheel these past weeks. But things are good-I’m not complaining…I’m just a hot mess mom.

Let’s start with Harry. He’s now 2 and I’m still emotional. He’s my best lil pal and is just a gem.

For his bday we went to the Apple orchard and picked apples and pumpkins and it was a blast. We are cheese curds and cake and had lots of laughs and smiles together.

He had his 2 year check up which stressed me out a tad. He’s tall…like gonna be 6’4” tall. But he’s skinny…so skinny he doesn’t have a BMI. So we’re watching that. But the kid eats! He just runs non stop from 7 am to 7 pm. He even runs in his sleep. He is also going to see an eye specialist and a speech therapist because he’s a little behind on talking (he can say mama, dada, ball, grandpa, dump truck, please, thank you…) so we’re trying to be proactive. Love ya buddy.

Crozzy D is so great. I love her so much. She basically eats, sleeps, poops, plays, and gets kisses from her brother.

She’s almost 3 months old! She’s working on her neck strength and has been seeing Dr. Shelby for some tight spots in her back. She loves Dr. Shelby as much as I do!

Me, myself? I’m doing fine. I’ve been trying to get in one long run, a couple short runs, a track workout, and three weight sessions a week. I am focusing on 1-2 rest days a week with a nice slow hike. My appetite has been MIA lately but I think that’s due to stress. I’ve been consuming donuts, subs, coffee, and water LOL. I’d say I’m thriving.

Subhouse has been so busy lately and I’m so grateful for it. Our days fly by and it’s really nice to be back and chat with other adults on a daily basis. I miss my kids a shit ton during the day but it Makes our time together that much more special.

We’ve been going to town on our house. I LOvE OUR ROOM. We upgraded to a king size bed and it was the best decision ever. Now the whole fam fits in the bed-my dream.

Ruthie girl is being the best noodle head ever. She is settling in nicely and loves having freedom to run around.

Today I am planning on cleaning, organizing, relaxing, and drinking a tall glass of red grape juice.

I hope you’re doing well and have a fab weekend.

XO

Haley

6 weeks post partum

And just like that 6 weeks has come and gone and here we are. Crozzy D is 2 weeks away from being 2 months old. Harry is almost 2. My babes are growing so quickly and I’m sad but also happy because they are such joys to be around.

Crosby loves pooping, tummy time (weird right), her brother, and being held. She does not like napping in her crib still or being cold.

Harrison loves being by his sister and recently developed an obsession for holding her. He will also lay next to her during tummy time and likes to read books with her.

Harry is obsessed with dump trucks, trains, and the sprinkler. He loves washing everything he can with the hose including himself.

These two crack me up daily and I’m so thankful I like my kids. They are everything to me.

6 weeks postpartum and I’m feeling real good. Running has been a dream-it’s my 60 minutes of me time and let’s me reflect on all that’s happening in life. It lets me check in with my body and actually makes me super relaxed. I’ve been doing some longer trail runs and recently discovered an obsession for interval runs thanks to my chiropractor.

I warm up with 5 minutes of an easy pace then dial it in for the next 25 with intervals of 1:00 on, 90 seconds recover. It’s fun, I feel faster, and the time flies by. Give it a try!

Also been doing some fun workouts like this…quick, spicy, and makes me feel strong!

Workouts must be quick these days cuz I’d rather be snuggling my babies.

In other news I’ve been eating way too much ice cream because it’s hot AF here and drinking way too much iced coffee because #momlife. Who cares, YOLO.

Oh I also started to wean off breastfeeding and pumping and while it feels odd and sad, it’s also nice. Now anyone can feed her anywhere and our lives feel a little more flexible. I have about 60 bags of milk saved and am mixing in a tiny bit of formula so she gets used to that. Since I go back to work in a week and can’t really pump, we will be switching to formula when the milk runs out. Part of me feels like a bad mom but the other part of me says screw that, we are doing the beat we can. She’s happy and healthy and that’s all that matters. Don’t let anyone tell you you’re doing a bad job or doing it wrong. Everyone is different. Do what’s best for you.

I leave you with a Crozberry smile.

Toodles!

XO

-Hales and Croz

Mid week fun

I’m on my second cup of iced coffee and I’m having a lazy day. Well as lazy of a day as you can have with two kids and a dog LoL. It’s rainy and I’m in the mood to bake. I want to try my hand at homemade pop tarts but I can’t decide on a filling flavor…strawberry, lavender blueberry, or brown sugar? IDK!

This morning was super fun. I tried my hand at a 7 mile trail run and it was ok to good. I got real tired at the end and walked up the huge ass hill but my butt felt good and my legs strong!

I had to jump into the woods once to take a 💩 and someone came running by. I freaked and dove deeper into the woods so they wouldn’t see me and when I crept out I had forest all up in my hair. My hair is a whole nother story. I usually run with a braid or a bun. Today I forgot. It was humid. My pony tail exploded and I had the largest rats nest ever. Not good. Ripped out a shit ton of hair trying to remove said rats nest. Never again will I forget my braid.

Last night my parents took Harry camping in the front yard. I wanted to go but didn’t think feeding a baby at 3 am in a tent with my parents sounded great. It was kind of a test run for my birthday and it went well. Harry was SO excited. He was squealing like a pig and was super helpful setting up the tent.

We made him pick his fave books and stuffed animals to put on his air bed so he’d be comfortable. The air bed didn’t last long on account of he kept rolling off and running/jumping onto bah pas bed. Once they set the pack n play up all was well. I’d say he loves camping. Now just wait til he discovers s’mores!

Anyone else getting excited for fall? Just me? Cool weather, crock pot meals, pumpkin spice cold brew? My birthday lol. Sounds fun! We should be moved in to our house by then and I can’t wait to decorate! Ehhhhh good times ahead!

Thanks for tuning in. Have a great night!

XO

Hales

She’s 1 month

And just like that my newborn baby girl is a month old. Each day she gets cuter, more active, and a little bigger. Why does the newborn stage go by so quickly. I’m learning to cherish these moments because with 2 under two life goes by way too fast.

Crosby usually wakes up between 7 and 8 am. Then she stays awake until the afternoon where on most days she’ll take a 3 hour nap. Then she’s awake again til 8pm. Bottle, book, and bed for her and she’s usually asleep by 9:30/10. Getting this child to bed takes a while because she loves making grunting noises in her crib and kicking her legs like crazy!

She’s been waking up around 2 or 3 am to eat most nights (mornings?) and then again around. I’d say she enjoys milk, my beautiful singing voice, tummy time, walks, her dada, her brother, and being held. She does not enjoy bed time or not being held.

One month postpartum and I’m feeling good most days. Some days I’m crabby, irritable, stressed, anxious…but that’s expected! Some days I’m like, “am I doing enough for my kids? Are they having a good childhood?” Then I remember we’re in a pandemic and there’s not much we can do. Also, do I remember anything from being 1 month or 2 years old? Negative. I’m doing the best I can under the circumstances and I’d say that’s a-ok.

I have been running about 3-4 times a week now and it feels fab. My first run back at the Willow was a dream. I felt like a wild horse and had to reign it in otherwise I would have been spent by mile 2. I’ve been trying to do some strength training 3-4 times a week and shower every 3 days LoL.

I’ve been trying to eat well but the damn sweets get me! I have been trying to cut back to only dessert after dinner but it’s HARD. I normally have coffee and avo toast for breakfast and it’s my fave meal. I get so excited for it sometime I wake up early just to make it.

Sam and I have been working on the house, drinking shandy (I discovered I actually don’t enjoy white claws), taking family walks, talking about the future (LOL more me than Sam), and enjoying time with each other. We got away to Duluth for a couple days last week and it was a real treat (although I missed the little bugs).

New bedroom view!

I’m just trying to make the most of each day before going back to work full time (anxious!!!). These kids are at such a fun age and it’s safe to say I am obsessed with my children. Harry makes me pee my pants daily because he is just so funny. Last night during bath time he was dunking his head under water…he swallowed a bit too much water and then burped and farted at the same time and I had actual tears coming from my eyes. He’s obsessed with trains and construction trucks, loves his sister, and recently started blowing air kisses to all his toys and books before bed. I’d eats like a champ (radishes, cashews, steak, pears), and is the best snuggle buddy.

I told Sam the other day I just really love our kids and want to be with them all the time. Feeling especially grateful this morning for love, family, and sweet kiddo kisses.

Hope you have a fab day!

XO

-Hales

We bought a house!

It was worth the wait. After almost a year of looking, the perfect house fell right into place. Sam and I have purchased his childhood home and we couldn’t be more thrilled.

Our dreams of having land and a place for our kids to run, play, explore, dirt bike, and make memories has come true. We will have 5 acres of privacy! The house has a deck which is literally my dream feature. It’s got a fire place (also a dream), a garage (Sam’s dream…plus his Plymouth Valiant is still in there lol), great windows looking out over the woods…I feel like we are in a dream and just can’t wait to move in. We are so thrilled we could keep this gem in the fam.

Let the house projects begin! I’ve never really been good at designing but this time around I’m trying a little harder. Pinterest has been a giant help and while we are taking it slow and doing necessities first, my house board is just loaded with ideas.

Our new carpet gets installed Tuesday and we just got a new washer and dryer. Hello adult hood. Nothing like a new appliance to make you giddy.

This laundry room makes me excited to actually do laundry too.

Harry’s room is going to be a construction zone. He might even get a bulldozer bed for his 2nd birthday. Crozzy’s getting a neutral rainbow room and I can’t wait to see the finished product. Here’s some fun wall art I framed for her.

For our room (also has a deck, heck yeah) I’m thinking a retreat. A calm, cool color, a cozy bed, lots of pillows and a plush comforter…LOL a girl can dream right. I told Sam we need to upgrade to a king size bed for movie nights with the kids and dog…he said he has to measure first.

My last project I’m in charge of is the coffee bar. Sam let me go for this one and I’m extremely excited to see this come together. I ordered a beautiful buffet to place the coffee maker, latte maker, and supplies in and am thinking I’ll use chalkboard paint to paint behind it so we can doodle and write love notes. Thoughts?

I think we are both super excited to have something to take our minds off everything that is currently happening in this world. We can’t wait to see this project come together and make this our forever home.

Maybe in 2021 we can have a housewarming party? TBD.

Thanks for tuning in…here’s to putting on my Joanna Gaines hat and making magic happen.

XO

-Haley

3 weeks postpartum

I was talking to Crosby yesterday and apologized for bringing her into this world at the current times. It makes me sad what is happening in the world. Why is there so much hate? Why does the supposed leader of this country (LOL if you know me you know my thoughts on this) say and do things that creates a burning rage deep in my soul. Crosby will live her first months, maybe even years never seeing a facial expression because we are in a pandemic (wear your damn mask!). I’m all for the masks but it’s just tough thinking about your children in this world at this time.

Sorry rant over…at least she’s a baby and doesn’t do much yet. Harry on the other hand. He’s a busy boy and I feel like he’s missing out on so much right now. He can’t make friends. He can’t go to the library. He can’t play at the playground (well we go to the deserted playground by our house still and sanitize). It’s just tough. Thank goodness for family time and strollers because we’ve been going on a shit ton of walks. I must remember to focus on what we CAN do. Family time is everything.

Ok now rant over. It’s been 3 weeks already since the eve of Crosby’s birth. I. Cannot. Believe. It. I don’t do much these days but time seems to fly by even faster!

She’s a growing gal and def was cluster feeding yesterday. Lil snacks all day long. But she slept for 5 hour chunks at night and mom and dad were all for that!

She loves being held. She makes some pretty adorable faces. She’s already had like 4 poop explosions. And bath time is a real treat.

Harry is still loving on his sister which makes me so happy. They will be the best of friends, I’m hopeful.

So 4th trimester. Here we are. My mind is clear, my focus is on my children, and I’m doing the best I can. Let me tell you though, I have not cooked a meal since probably October 2019. YIKES. That’s when we moved in with my parents. I have forgotten how to cook. I baked muffins yesterday and they were so undercooked the insides were gooey. They still taste fab, I’ve just lost my cooking touch. Practice makes perfect so looks like I’ve got some muffin baking ahead of me.

I’ve been seeing the chiropractor 2x a week and am feeling great. Feeling so great I took a mini walk jog yesterday. While I did pee myself a little, it felt great to get out and move. I have also been focusing on strengthening my core (push ups, planks, kegels), and try to get in 1-2 hikes a week.

My belly button is poked out and I’m not sure it will ever return to normal but that’s ok with me. It reminds me I birthed two children and makes me smile. My boobs feel gigantic and every time I shower I turn into a milky mess.

BUT I wouldn’t have it any other way because mom life is my best life. I love my kids. I love my husband. I love my dog. I love being a mom.

Have a great weekend. You are strong. You are fierce. You can do tough things.

XO

Hales

2 week check in

Crozzy D has officially been living it up for two weeks. 14 days with this little peanut. Second time around I feel much more relaxed.

She eats way better than her brother ever did. This time around I don’t feel as guilty if I pump and feed her a bottle here and there. It’s nice to know exactly how many oz she is eating per feeding. I still try to breastfeed first but to me it’s freaking hard. She sleeps at night but is pretty much awake and alert from 11am to 8pm lol.

She had her two week check up yesterday and besides a very goopy eye, everything is swell. She weighed in at 8 lbs 4 oz (yay almost gained a pound since our last visit) and has grandma Diane’s lil peanut head. She’s 21 inches long. Neat.

She enjoys walks, her brother, milk, and her blanket. She does not enjoy napping in her crib. That’s ok, more baby snuggles for me!

Raising a baby in a pandemic is odd but we are making the most of it. She got to visit her lady friends at the bank yesterday and that was a real treat. We even got to take her and her brother out to breakfast the other morning. Family trips are just everything right now.

Well, I must go fold the biggest pile of laundry now, have a fab day.

XO

-Hales

SELF love and care

After a much needed visit to the chiropractor Tuesday morning (Sam and my date mornings…coffee and chiro) I am finding myself more at ease with baby #2 (for the most part). We talked about the 4th trimester and how important it is to take a little me time every day (more on this later). We talked about positive self talk and how important this is for the little ones.

I’ve been doing a bit of journaling about positive self talk and body image lately. I’ve always struggled with this topic. I was not kind to my body or my mind throughout high school (it actually started in 8th grade…how sad is that). It took a trip to London for a semester in college to let myself live a little and unlearn my previous behaviors.

I am working so hard on telling myself how strong I am right now. I just gave birth to a healthy little girl. It’s time to take time to recover fully. I told Dr. Shelby I was feeling good, maybe I’d start running soon. NO Haley. Chillax. It hasn’t even been 2 weeks. And you know what? I’m chillaxing to the max.

Hikes and walks have been so great and feel amazing. I am visualizing myself running in the future and I feel strong AF because I am letting myself fully recover. I’m trying to drink a shit ton of water, eat more fruits and nuts, and have a glass of wine here and there.

I’m also trying to get in naps, eat well (for the most part hehe), take a bath here or there, and check in with myself every so often to remind myself I’m a badass mother, strong as can be. If anyone can do it, why not me! You can steal that little diddy if you’d like.

We also talked about being conscious of the things we say about ourselves…especially in front of our kids. Harry is the sweetest, kindest soul and I want him to stay that way. I want him to look at himself as strong, kind, brave, compassionate, sensitive, emotional, etc. if I talk negatively about myself, he might start doing the same (this is where I shed a tear). I never really thought about that.

I also want Croz to grow up loving herself and treating herself with kindness. Again, it starts with Sam and I because we are who these kiddos look up to. Mind blown.

I am making a conscious effort to do better for my kids. I’m also making a conscious effort to take a little time each day for myself.

Times are weird my friends but there are so many things to be thankful for. My daily gratitude journal is reminding me just how beautiful this life is.

Be kind to yourselves, you’re doing amazing.

XO

-Hales

Life update 235

I feel like a lot of my time lately is consumed by picking up poop. Ruthie poop, Harry poop, Crosby poop…I guess there could be worse shit to deal with (see what I did there?).

Now that Crosby has been home for over a week, I feel like we are hitting a groove. It’s been an adjustment going from 1 to 2 kids…especially when one needs a nap and one is hungry, but that has really been the only struggle so far.

Harry loves his sister so much and I feel incredibly lucky that our children are already getting along! He has only tried to sit on her once but I’m confident that was a one and done type thing. Harry loves kissing his sister and picking out her outfits.

As far as Crosberry (nickname from uncle Kyle) goes, she’s doing pretty great. The one thing I’m struggling with is getting her to nap in her crib. But she sleeps in it at night so that’s a win.

I really struggled breastfeeding with Harry and he lost quite a bit of weight right away. He was so sleepy and we had to wake him ever two hours to try to get some milk in him. Crosby is doing much better than her brother in the eating department. Girl loves her milk.

Let me tell you though…breastfeeding is tough shit for me. She is great on the left but won’t eat from the right (due to an inverted nip TMI). I know she’s doing well but the back of my mind still wonders if she’s getting enough. I do do a combo of pumping and bottle feeding and breastfeeding because it’s what works for me. I’m realizing every person is different and has a different story and if I need to bottle feed my baby, so be it. You can judge me but I don’t really care.

She has her two week check up Friday and I’m so excited to see what our doctor says. She’s alert and has her eyes open a ton. She makes silly faces and is snuggly as can be. I am trying to enjoy every moment with her because soon I will be back at work and this precious time will be a thing of the past (yes I’m struggling thinking about it). Anyway I’m incredibly grateful for all the family time we have been given these past weeks and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

In other news, Sam and I have been busy getting our new house ready…well for Sam it’s an old house. We are currently in the process of buying his dad’s house and we couldn’t be more excited! It’s got land, a deck, and plenty of space for 2 kids and a dog. We are starting with the kid’s rooms and I’m so excited to paint and decorate. Will update more on this later.

Well that’s all for now! Toodles!

-Hales

Crosby Diane

This time last week I was settling in to my nice, cozy hospital room. Sam and I had been waiting for this moment for the past couple weeks. The day had finally arrived.

We had packed lots of snacks, Yahtzee, 5 Gatorade’s, and our personal items. All was well.

Things started off pretty low key and slow. They started my petocin drip around 10:30AM at the lowest possible dose. I had petocin with Harrison and knew it worked wonders but also kicked the contractions from an 8 to an 800 (I’m being dramatic).

Here’s my shortened birth version:

It was tough. It was intense. I feel like my recovery is taking much longer this time than with Harry. I am trying to give myself grace and time but it’s a hard thing for me. I’m just trying to soak up every minute with this beautiful girl.

For recovery I’ve been doing a lot of walking and I discovered padsicles which are life changing. I’ve been trying to eat well but all I crave is ice cream. I lost a lot of blood so I’m just trying to take it easy (that’s not easy with a rambunctious almost 2 year old).

Harry LOVES his sister. He is obsessed. He gives her the best kisses and they hit it off instantly. I am so excited to watch their relationship grow. I literally cry every time he kisses her because hormones and it’s just the cutest thing.

Crosby also wore the same outfit home that I did. I suppose you could say she looks like me (Harry def looks like Sam).

She’s almost a week old and I can’t believe it. I can’t believe this little human was inside my belly one week ago. Crozzy D you are my peanut.

That is all. Thanks for reading our birth adventure.

XO

-Hales